Blowing a Fuse

Yesterday, I blew a fuse…

It hasn’t been easy and snarky people have not helped.

In the last few weeks, I have been bombarded by loss, by cancer… by grief. I have tried to keep smiling, being positive and trying to make people happy, but I have reached a point where the positive and happy juices have stopped flowing. All I see is doom… an endless pit of despair. A black hole that is sucking everything in and I don’t see a way out… Continue reading

2016…

Its 2016 and people have made resolutions…

Year after year, I would make my unrealistic and unattainable resolutions, hoping that it would be the year where it will all come true. Yet the year will pass and I would not even had accomplished 1/10th of what I had set out to do… and then disappointment would set in and the year would be over… we move on and make the same resolutions for the coming year… I would say: “This time… I think it would be the year” … But…

And that is why, this year, I did not make any resolutions. I have decided that this year I will go with the flow and do as I feel, with no restrictions and no unattainable goals. I have spent so many years within the confines of a little box, created by myself and sometimes by society that I want to feel the freedom of not feeling guilty or restricted by what others might think or say.

So let’s see where I am headed… a few weeks ago, I was talking with my family about my blog. I could continue talking about Erman the Hermit Squatter, but the subject would get redundant and boring… He is still there and will never leave, that is a fact so we move on… radiation will happen, it is just a matter of when:  6 months or in a year .  There is no point in dwelling on things you cannot change, they will happen and you have no control over them, so keep going… You see, Erman is not my life, my life does not revolve around my tumor; it revolves around my family, my kids, my career, my friends, my activities, my adventures, etc… so the amount of time I give my tumor is almost non-existent. The amount of time I give to life… is 99.99999%. So going back to my talk with the famiglia… we were throwing different subjects and of course laughing at their silliness, then my oldest said something that made me crack up and I said: “I should write about how to survive a pre-teen/teen”… and she replied: “and I would write about how to survive my parents as a teen”… we laughed, but then I realized that it could be a great way to get her to open up and let her feelings flow… so we agreed that I would write about surviving a pre-teen/teen and in turn, she would write about surviving her parents and if she was consistent, I would post her writing on my blog… what I wasn’t expecting was that she would go right into it and an hour later I would have an entry…. I have not yet read it, but I will keep my word and post it…

So what does 2016 hold? Abundance of possibilities, adventures, drama, laughs, hugs, kisses, love and of course how to survive life 🙂

2016 bring it on!!!

 

A Christmas Gift

Today, is a cold cloudy day. It’s on days like today that people tend to get more depressed. The lack of light from the sun seems to affect the mood of almost everyone. But for me, it is a day when I can wrap myself in a blanket, sit on the sofa with a nice hot tea and read to my heart’s content.

A few weeks ago, I decided to take a break from writing… actually, I decided to take a break from everything. I needed to reassess my life and the possibility of a second surgery and what it would entail for my family and me. I was so overwhelmed with everything that nothing mattered anymore. Continue reading

WordPress Family Award

Wordpress Family AwardWordPress Family Award

I have been extremely blessed!!! I have been nominated for the WordPress Family Award a few weeks ago. I have been nominated by Robin Gilbert Luftig from http://robinluftig.com blog. It was a shock and I am honored to accept this award! Thank you, Robin for nominating me!

How to Accept to Award?

  1. Copy and display the award logo on your blog.
  2. Link back to the person who nominated you.
  3. Nominate 10-15 others you see as having an impact on your WordPress experience.
  4. Let your “fellow blogging family members” know you have awarded them.
  5. That’s it. Simple. Then, pick 10-15 people who have taken you as a friend, and spread the love.

My Nominees

  1. http://rontreal.com/
  2. http://archangeloracle.com/
  3. http://thepennywisemama.com/
  4. http://keiralennox.com/
  5. http://yaydecor.com/
  6. http://design-vox.com/
  7. https://pageturnerblog.wordpress.com/
  8. http://modexlusive.com/
  9. https://misfortuneofknowing.wordpress.com/
  10. http://braintumorlife.com/

Thank you everyone

Lots of love and Blessings!